Things I’d Rather Knot Know
I am twenty seven. I have friends, my age and younger, who are wildly successful. They have vision. I have a relatively constant feeling that vision is what I lack. When I think about joining other artists in meet-ups or photocamps I have a debilitating fear they will ‘find me out’ and expose me as some ridiculous fraud. I tell myself this isn’t a unique feeling.
I don’t believe it.
I have ideas. Lots of ideas. Things I can’t figure out how to do. But I am terrified of telling them to others, and even more so of actually doing them and turning them into failures. My expectations are high. What of my friends, though? What did their work begin life as? Ideas, surely, but they must have had their doubts. Is everyone else as surefooted as it looks?
